其實我很不會寫這種東西,主要是想解釋一下篇名的由來。
〈One Last Breath〉是一首歌,但是我一開始是先看到了這個MV,一個細膩傳達了感情的MV,去查了歌詞之後,發現它完全地貼切我心目中Mac和Danny的感覺。於是我的小宇宙就爆發了,因此出現了這篇小說。
這篇小說不是順著MV去寫的,他們之間唯一的相關就是這首歌和歌詞。
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Aint so far down
畢竟讓我注意到這兩個人之間的互動,就是220的那一個擁抱。
那個擁抱讓人感到疼痛、不捨、窒息、溫柔和愛情,是愛情而不是愛,因為他們還不能了解對彼此的在意到了什麼地步。
這一篇小說在這裡就結束了,但是請不要向我丟雞蛋,因為會有第二部。(笑)
第二部〈Deep Darkness〉會有一點情慾的描寫,算是我對自己的挑戰,一個跨越性的嘗試,向來不寫床戲的我要怎麼去寫,才能達到那種欲望的氣氛但是卻不情色?
〈Deep Darkness〉沒有辦法獨立於〈One Last Breath〉當成一部無關的小說來看,因為他們彼此是關聯的,甚至根本就是一個接續。但是不想看到Mac和Danny有情慾戲的人卻可以選擇跳過第二部,讓記憶在最後完結,因為就一部小說的主體性和完整性來說,〈One Last Breath〉已經夠完整了。
那麼,我就不對MV和歌再多做解釋,請去欣賞,然後等待〈Deep Darkness〉。
http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=6LkSU2HGCP8
〈One Last Breath〉
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Aint so far down
I'm looking down now that its over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in his grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Aint so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking